Crymsyn

Thankfulness

2008-11-28T17:45:06Z

I am thankful for...

-my loving husband who I've now known almost 4 years

-my family for being here for Thanksgiving

-a yummy smelling turkey that is making me super hungry

-my mom for being a source of family nearby

-my friends for being there for me

-enough money to go back to MA for Christmas this year

-Jamee being safe and hopefully staying that way

-my lovely kitties, Chaos and Fae

-my birdie, Apollo, and the fact that it's been almost 3 months and he hasn't died

-my house

-my outdoor kitties, Jack and Peanut... and Bear

-good movies to watch

-my driver's license.. it took me long enough to get

-my car...which i own free and clear

-how amazingly my life has turned out so far

I'm sure the list goes on but I can't think of any more right now. I am very thankful for all of it.

Happy Thanksgiving!

For KirA

2008-08-30T18:15:38Z

RULES:

Pick your birth month.

Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.

Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.

Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under an lj-cut.

JUNE: ~~Thinks far with vision~~. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. ~~Good debating skills~~. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. ~~Knows how to make friends~~. Able to show character. Easily hurt. ~~Prone to getting colds~~. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. ~~Seldom shows emotions.~~ Takes time to recover when hurt (if you count the five minutes it takes for someone to say sorry...) ~~Brand conscious~~. Executive. Stubborn.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
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DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

crymsynsunset @ 2008-05-11T21:05:00

2008-05-12T01:06:06Z

I am married! Alaska rocks and it was a wonderful honeymoon. For insider details, leave a comment, hehe.

I passed!!!!!

2008-03-07T19:37:13Z

I am an official driver! I passed and I can drive all by my onesies now!! And I gotted all nervous for nothing. The examiner was really nice and pretty much walked me through the whole thing....and complimented me on the fact that I'd been practicing. I took 3 rt turns, one left turn, one 3 pt turn, I backed up for like 15 ft, I crossed an intersection, took 2 more rt turns and parked. I can't believe I got myself all worked up over THAT! In any case, yay me!

crymsynsunset @ 2008-03-05T23:24:00

2008-03-06T04:25:08Z

My road test is this friday, everyone send me good luck!!!!

crymsynsunset @ 2008-02-23T16:08:00

2008-02-23T21:08:50Z

I drove home! On the highway! I went 70! Like a big girl! I's so proud of myself!

My perty engagement ring!!!

2007-08-31T02:12:52Z

HAPPY!

2007-08-26T20:40:30Z

Well, over the weekend I went to Disneyworld and during my time in Epcot, my wonderful boyfriend proposed to me! Of course, I said yes! So I is engaged!!!! I shall certainly post pictures of the ring soon, it is lovely!

I really like my life!!!

2007-08-09T03:15:13Z

so, since moving to NC, I've found it increasingly hard and frustrating because of a lack of job...sitting at home staring at the same four walls and the television all the time has a way of making me REALLY restless but without a reason to leave my house... I usually don't, mostly because I'm lazy. In any case, yesterday so made my entire summer. I got a call late in the morning from Sylvan ( a company I've been trying to get a job with since early July) finally offering me a part-time position! Needless to say, I was rather happy. Then!, I got my North Carolina Teaching License, which means I can now legally teach in North Carolina...and it's a permanent one that lasts for three years and I didn't even have to take any extra tests for it, yay me. Again, needless to say, by this point, I was ecstatic. Then, since I got the job offer, my boyfriend told me about a surprise he'd been planning. He's taking me to Disneyworld as a sort of congratulations we own a new house present! By this point, I was overjoyed and then I just kept adding in little things like how lucky I am to have my boyfriend and that moving to NC did not deprive me of the cute lil lizards of Hawaii but still added in squirrels (which are nonexistent in Hawaii). So, in conclusion, I am seriously in love with my life right now! And, I hope, next year I shall be even more in love with my life because by then, hopefully I'll be in a classroom of my very own teaching my very own students and driving to work all by my onsies. This is my goal. Yay life! -hops some- Now to return you to your regularly scheduled internet program.

My Pretty pretty bedroom!

2007-07-24T03:03:43Z

crymsynsunset @ 2007-07-22T18:44:00

2007-07-22T22:49:48Z

So, in recent ponderings, I have concluded that I am terribly lucky to have what I have and that I was terribly silly in highschool for thinking that I'd never have it. What I'm saying is I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me and takes care of me and treats me like I'm someone special (and I love him and take care of him and at least try to treat him like someone special). After asserting this, all I can think about is how all throughout highschool and college, I complained that I didn't have a boyfriend and that I was always good enough for the friend role but never good enough for the girlfriend role and how very very silly and boring I must have been complaining about that. It kinda makes me laugh, which is a good thing, I guess. If you can't laugh at yourself... you have a terrible sense of humor... and you focus way too much on mistakes.

On a sidenote, I am worried about my newest kitty... I think she may have worms and I'm wondering whether to call the vet about it or just wait until her appointment on the 6th of August. Anyone who knows more about kitties wanna give me any suggestions?

Figured I might as well write something in here of slight substance so here it is..do with it what you will.

My Kitties

2007-07-20T18:32:39Z

crymsynsunset @ 2007-06-22T15:54:00

2007-06-22T19:57:55Z

Since I last wrote, I have traversed the country-from Honolulu to LA to Dallas to Denver to Boston and finally to Raleigh. We have a house of our very own (we bought it, no thanks to our realtor) that we get to decorate and I absolutely adore it here. I am so glad I'm not living in hotels anymore. While my cross-country trip was fun, it was also really tiring and I didn't really get to see many attractions because we had our cat with us and we didn't want to take her outside or leave her in the car for extended periods of time. In any case, my house already feels like home and I'm looking at going to a job fair for teaching here in North Carolina. I'm really excited and hope everything goes well. Just wanted to let everyone know I was alive and happy...will write again eventually, I'm sure.

crymsynsunset @ 2007-04-09T22:57:00

2007-04-10T08:58:26Z

Well, all, it's official. I am moving to North Carolina with my boy. YAY for EST!!!

Homesickness and frustration

2007-01-29T05:45:22Z

And this day represents another day I really wish I was in MA again... or at least somewhere closer to there, rather than the farthest I can get while still being in the United States. I keep hearing family and friends tell me how lucky I am to be here because of the lack of cold and snow... and all I really want is the cold and snow again. I know, it's blaspemy.. being in Hawaii and wanting to be anywhere else but here.... but here just isn't home and it really gets to me. I think it's mostly because all of my close friends live around there and I have yet to make close friends out here who don't have kids and aren't busy all the time with that. I have aquaintences and all, but noone I really feel I can just hang out with. Usually I don't dwell on this kinda thing and my apartment starts to actually feel like home instead of somewhere I just live. The feeling of homesickness really seems to hit when my significant other is gone at work... either it just gives me time to reflect on how much I miss home, or he is the one that makes this place feel like home. Lately, I've really been missing my friends back home horribly. Alex, KirA, Lauren, Jason, Erica...even the casual friends I made at school, work, or college...Raye for instance. It's hard to not have close friends... I just haven't made that connection with anyone lately. Perhaps when I get to wherever I'm going after this (as we are moving but don't quite know to where yet) I should join a class or a group or something that would put me in contact with other people - at least that way I have a greater chance of making real friends that I can just chill with when my significant other isn't here or is too tired to do anything.

Also, I've been noticing lately how dependant I've become on people to get me places and this is really starting to annoy me. When I get to wherever I'm going, one of the first things I'm doing after finding a place to live is getting a permit and learning to drive. I'm ready for it and I've been itching to learn for at least a month now. I guess it makes sense... being such a late bloomer to most things, of course it takes me a good 6 years after I'm supposed to learn to want to learn. It was fairly similar with bike riding, I waited 5 years after most people my age learned. I am really feeling that I'm ready which is good because that means I'll have motivation to learn and be able to be lots more independent in the future (read not sitting at home watching tv with my significant other when all I wanna do is get off my ass and go somewhere because he is too tired to drive ((also, not blaming here, his job sucks and I understand being tired, it's more my fault anyway)) )

Well, I think I'm finished with that now. And that is awfully lame but oh well, I'll live.

crymsynsunset @ 2006-12-29T18:45:00

2006-12-30T04:45:14Z

Well CHristmas is over, the goose is no longer fat, hehe, and New Year's shall be upon us soon. In any case, twas a strange Christmas pretty much because it was so warm but Daniel was very good to me this year and he liked his presents from me too. I miss Massachusetts lots tho, Hawaii is nice but it still isn't home. WEll, I guess that concludes this post, I'm tired.

crymsynsunset @ 2006-11-03T21:58:00

2006-11-04T07:58:57Z

Two posts in the same day, what's happening!?! In any case, it just hit me how many people I've lost due to stupid decisions and how many friends I regret not having anymore. Sometimes it sucks being alone and having time to think. I do wish those people whom I do not talk to anymore have the heart to forgive and forget someday. Ah well.

More of the Chaos

2006-11-04T07:51:35Z

In't she a cutey????

A lil bit homesick

2006-09-27T20:49:55Z

I miss home. Who knew I'd end up missing autumn....it's too hot here in Hawaii. Mostly tho, I just miss my friends and family... I have friends out here and all but I still miss everyone... all the family parties and stuffness -sigh- Ah well, the job is going good and I make really good money!

Random thoughts

2006-07-31T08:04:10Z

While perusing a journal that used to have me friended and then unfriended me which means I can't read any of it a thought occurred to me... do people forget me as easily as I remember them? People always seem surprised when I know something about them that they told me but didn't expect me to remember. It may seem a bit morose, but I really am not sad...vaguely annoyed perhaps but not sad, I just wonder about weird things while sitting at home by myself.

crymsynsunset @ 2006-07-30T21:29:00

2006-07-31T07:30:31Z

Well, since I've moved to Hawaii, I've gotten to have a lot of time to do stuff. And by stuff I mean stuff, lots of different things. But one of my favorite things I've managed to pick up again is baking... I can't remember the last time I was able to do so much baking, it really is awesome, I love baking... wanted to be a chef when I was younger and I almost went to a trade high school to be able to do it. Oh, I've also been able to do some actual cooking too...I get to get all creative with dinner, especially when I'm home alone because Daniel is on duty. I've made some awesome stir-fries both with noodles and rice, I've amazed myself with my semi creativity and it actually tastes good too! Yay for broccoli and onions and chicken with sweet and sour sauce over noodles and/or rice. Anyway, back to the baking, I've gotten to make coffee cake and brownies and tonight I tried something different... lemon squares!! And they turned out awesome (altho for anyone out there who likes to cook..the pan gets kinda sticky afterwards and so a good soak is necessary). Oh, also, I seem to have gotten a lot more domestic... I'm sure everyone will be quite surprised...well everyone who knows me personally anyway...but I clean now! My apartment is all spic-n-span, there's very few things cluttering the floor...even in the bedroom and I vaccuum and do the dishes and dust..and I'm even planning on cleaning the bathroom (to which I say YUCK loud and clear, but it needs to be done). My mom would probably wonder who I am and what happened to me, hehe...maybe everyone else would too. But, I suppose there's noone else to do it here so I must do it myself... also having the cat helps with making me do the vaccuuming...if I don't vaccuum, I start sneezing a lot...tho not nearly as badly as I did on the east coast. Hmm, I do miss my family and friends back in MA...I missed my cousin's birthday party and my brother brought a girl too... and I don't have too many friends here yet, kinda hope that'll change once I start working. Oh, have also started LARPing (Live Action Role Playing for those not in the know) which is an absolute blast, I get to vent my acting skills without having to worry about that pesky thing known as stage fright which I am overly prone to. It's very much fun... and I just learned how to get this thing to get this from saved format... stupid computer froze up in the middle of my post, dag nabbit. Oh well, just an update, healthy, happy, and looking forward to beginning work... til later

It's Chaos!

2006-07-26T22:14:41Z

Job Searching

2006-07-23T10:10:29Z

So, since moving to Hawaii, I've been quite busy on the search for a job. I've also been settling in and trying to make this place feel more like home and less like a vacation palace... something that hasn't been going so well, I think it's the weather here- perma summer = perma vacation. I kinda feel like I have a really cool summer house and am waiting to go back to my real house. In any case, back to the job front, this month seems to be my month tho considering I've gotten interviews for at least 3 jobs and I actually got offered one of the jobs. This is the part that's keeping me up(for most of you it;s 6am, but for me it's 12am and amazingly, I'm actually up late for me... I'm weird in Hawaii and wake up at like 8 every morning because I don't go to bed much later than 12ish - most of the time it's around 10-1030). So today, the elementary school I interviewed at called me back and offered me the position. Despite really wanting to teach, I was really hesitant to take this job, perhaps because of the impoverished community I'd have to teach and partly because it feels like I should take advantage of being in Hawaii on a perma vacation and exploring while I can because I am planning on moving next April or so back to the mainland (yes, you may all rejoice). And this being my first year teaching, it proves to be really hard and doubly so with the community I'd be teaching which would afford me very little time to explore and put back my cross country trip by a couple months and possibly negating it at the worst. -sigh- so what's really keeping me up is I'm wondering if I made the right decision. When I got the call, I asked the woman if I could call her back tomorrow because I still hadn't made up my mind... When I called her back after talking to my mom and deciding I should see what age group I would be working with..the principal told me that she had already given all the positions out.. so my debate as to which job I should take was kind of negated before it had a chance to really begin. This made me feel relieved (and annoyed but that's a different story) because my decision was made for me. But did I really do the right thing?? This is agonizing, I hate doubting myself but I've been doing it since I interviewed at the school, what if I made the wrong decision> In my heart, I really feel that I didn't and that this isn't the best choice for right now but there's always that nagging doubt. -sigh- ANy words of encouragement would be appreciated. It'd be nice to know if I had support about the decision that was kinda made for me. I keep thinking that if I really did want to teach right now, I wouldn't have been so indecisive (if you really want a job, you really want a job) and if I was meant to teach, the position would still be there for me. I just hope I'm right. So any words, any words at all, even if it's just to tell me I'm being silly and to stop worrying about things that are now out of my control.

Why I Chose My UserName

2006-06-21T18:09:26Z

Explain your LiveJournal name, its meaning, and mention an alternative username you would have used. When you're done, tag as many people as there are letters in your name.

Well, it's really not that complicated. Crymsyn is a play on Crimson and less used and I like Sunsets. I think it came out of a phrase I liked to use back in high school. The phrase would be "On the water, the crymsyn sunset glows" and I think it came from a picture I painted back in 8th grade. Really, I just like making up screennames that sound cool, this is an AIM sn I made up which I thought sounded good. At the time I made this journal, I was on a LOTR kick and so probably would have chosen ShadowFax or a derivitive thereof. Right now, I might go for WhisperedChaos, because I like how it sounds and its got my kitten's name in it. Now, I really don't have enough friends to tag and so, I shall tag anyone who bothers to read this and hasn't already done it.

My Kitty!!!.....and a random moth that landed on my door

2006-06-19T21:58:11Z